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I am maureen, and here is my livejournal or something. Some of these entries are friends only, so if you want to read all the fun bonus material (such as , "what did I eat today? I had tea, it was good. I went to school" etc .) and you're not creepy, you can be my friend and I'll probably add you back. Or if you are someone who has no account and just adds people, that's creepy too so no.
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|07:41 pm] |
Hm, here are some things I found interesting . so here you go.
Ever Dream This Man? - This soothingly browed man is making his way into peoples' dreams. Maybe he is how God looks.
thebeatlesneverbrokeup.com/ - One man's journey to an alternate dimension, and the acquisition of an impossible beatles cassette tape produced in the 80's. The funny thing is that despite the fact that this dude traveled to an alternate dimension, which is pretty amazing and supernatural as it is, the thing he his most amazed about is that the beatles stayed together there. Then he stole a alternate reality stranger's property, and made a web site about it. However, I refuse to believe that in any reality The Beatles would write a song called "Mr Gators Swamp Jamboree" |
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[Nov. 14th, 2009|08:42 pm] |
In order for me to comfortably study, I require certain things:
1. A hot drink
2. A snack
3. Soft background noise
4. A music player
5. A good internet connection
6. A piece of paper to doodle on
7. The time to be at least 8:00
8. The temperature to be cozy
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55. A fresh cup of nevada walrus extract (since nevada isn't actually by the ocean, it's kind of hard to come by. better go look for it)
56. Those chalky valentines day hearts
57. Friends
58. Louder background noise
59. A new war galleon
60. A small army of sympathizers
61. A safe , to store thoughts
62. A large feast
63. A small english cottage near the coast
64. A steel helmet
65. Those metal things you wear to punch people with
Wait, I don't actually need any of these things! AGHHH! |
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[Oct. 26th, 2009|02:09 pm] |
The sky exploded with rain. IT IS AWESOME AND I LOVE THIS. Welcome to the wonderland of your dreams , where the air is bursting with life and mystery. YESSS S S S S S
In other news, I finished Myst. It is an amazing game. I bought the port of it for my ipod. It is such a nice escapist environmental game. Now I want to invest in the whole million part myst series.
I got bored this weekend and started painting something. I don't know how I will ever finish it though, because right now everything's really light and hotel-paintingy and I don't know which vibranty colors would look good over it.
that's all. I just feel like I should update this journal. somehow . |
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[Sep. 11th, 2009|11:07 am] |
Maureen is thinking over and over about the same thing.
Maureen is thinking over and over about the same thing.
Maureen is thinking over and over about the same thing.
Maureen is thinking over and over about the same thing.
Maureen is thinking over and over about the same thing.
Maureen is thinking over and over about the same thing.
But eventually it will settle and I will find something else to ruminate about that is yet more mundane and stupid. It happens.
Anyway:
Yesterday there was a fire drill and we had to stay out of the dorms for an hour or so. So me and some suitemates/neighbors went to the beach. It was really misty and surreal over there. It was like in those dreams where you run down a hall that never ends , except.. in beach version. The water was numbing and I forgot to bring a sweater but it was still nice.
I had a dream last night that I went back home . Maybe I still subconsciously feel like I will in a few days. It's like when a loved one dies and you feel like they're still alive, except much less sad and much more insignificant. :I
Graphic design class is cool. We're learning about photoshop , but most of the things I already knew. Except that I learned about resolution and stuff and I never knew about it before. Apparently the default is 72 dpi and that's good for the internet and stuff, but real printing resolution 300 dpi. And filters and things work much better if you are using a higher resolution. HRM. the next assignment is coloring a sketch or altering a photo. hrmm .
also I should change my background thing soon. It isn't clear enough that they are fish. and why they are fish. and why they're there. It looks weird. I want to make a yellow and red paisley pattern .
stupid entry blah. the end
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[Aug. 26th, 2009|05:33 pm] |
bleh.
I have two forestry classes for different general ed requirements, both of them today. The first one was probably the most boring thing I have ever experienced. There were charts and charts and maps of things such as "what forests are getting bigger? which are shrinking? which countries have used the most natural resources? which countries are using lumber as a fuel? how fast is the audience being pulled violently into slumber? let's rearrange these facts in various other manifestations, several times over and over and over again." . And the professor talks in a quiet, fearful, monotonous way. The second forestry class is more interesting because it is about actual plants and stuff. And on fridays you get to go out into the forest and look at stuff . But we'll see .
And so, life is strange. I get bored easily but when I go out and do something different , it is intimidating . I should probably just live in an empty whitewashed room for the rest of my life.
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[Aug. 22nd, 2009|03:35 pm] |
I think I am beginning to get settled, maybe.
There isn't much to do. It's the weekend before classes start and all the lame "getting to know your fellow transfer people" things are over. I woke up late today, I think I got almost 12 hours of sleep. I had cheese flavored maruchan yakisoba thing for lunch. Cheese flavored instant soups are the best . Then I went to the farmers market, saw nothing of interest, browsed the eclectic incensey shops by the plaza, bought a sticker, had an expensive mocha, and went back to my room. Also I painted a little bit today. Maybe I will paint a full size thing to put on one of the tiny walls.
nothing to say blah blah ltrdgmnbhj |
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[Jul. 12th, 2009|11:15 pm] |
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I AM GOING OFF TO SCHOOL IN A MONTH ASDFGHJIQWER what a crazy world. far ish away but not way way far. but pretty darn far.
Also: jury duty. I have no idea why the government decided to (well, randomly) choose me to serve out my duty as a citizen, be useful, decide things, etc . They would be better off replacing me with a tape recorder attached to a high tech calculator from the future . I 'm not sure if I am actually on the jury thing but they already told us what the case was and all that. And I must bear the responsibility of not telling anyone, which is troubling. I survive by telling people about things , even if it is something as insignificant as "oh no, do you think I turned off the stove?" . Then of course the person will answer "Yes -_-" and even though I sort of knew that all along it is reassuring. I'll survive though I guess. I just might acquire so much worrisome thoughts that my brain will harden and crack horribly, but it won't be fatal. I'll just need someone to donate their brain to me, which might be for the best anyway.
[edit: ehygrhk I wasn't in the jury. The case was about some kind of hired killer who murdered someone at a hollywood video. dear giewtesuighj thank god I got out of that. ] Been cleaning my room lately. I found a notebook with a pokemon fan story in it from when I was somewhere between 8-12 years old. Also I found some horrifying works of art. Here, let me show you!
No, I insist!
( wow, how special )
BACK TO WORK NOW
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[Jul. 8th, 2009|03:14 pm] |
HELLO. I have no significant news to announce, as usual.
Yesterday I got my hair cut. I was going to get it sorta thinned out but I ended up just getting it trimmed by an inch. It was just at supercuts. I didn't understand the guy's accent and I felt bad. Also, the shampoo scent smells like men. Sort of a musky dirt smell, but the not aesthetically bad kind of musky dirt smell. The kind of scent that can be nostrilly detected in perfume. Not that I have anything against men, it is just ever so slightly unsettling.
Then, I went to REI to maybe get some new shoes to wear when I go away. But all of the shoes I liked felt weird. But the kind that are sorta mary jane lookin but also footdesigned and athleticy are cool. I obviously know nothing about foot science.
lala nothing important to say. I was going to put some more pictures here but they photographed bad so I will have to use the scanner. excuses. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2009|11:42 pm] |
Today I bought melon cream soda and off brand pocky. I got some extra to save for later, but then I ate my supplies. If I was survivorman, I would die. Also, I painted some tiny pictures. Maybe I will put them on fancy paper and make them into cards.
the pictures. they will exist on the digital world someday. here. yes.
I will edit this later. Somehow I just don't want to break the chain of posting in this within a relatively short period. or something. |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2009|01:13 am] |
Well hello! I have not been posting here lately. Such a long, tearful absence. No not really :1
There is this cemetery inside a mystical alien antarctican city, that is filled with hidden fossils and once-living anomalies that the aliens don't want anyone to know about. Or just monsters that they are afraid of. It is called "the field of secrets". It is intriguing. During my absence, I trekked deep into the antarctic bleachwhite snow, clad in thick a sheep's wool cardigan and multiple jackets, filled with authentic canadian goose down. I recorded my findings in my handbound cotton and synthetic fiber journal, imported from a southern province of france. That barren antarctican tundra was where I found this alien field. I didn't know what all the stuff there was, but I suspected something when one of the fossilgraves burst open and oozed a disturbingly pleasant smelling gas. It smelled like candy. I was swept into a aerial land of wonder, through use of a mammothbone whirligig. As I rode through the air, I extracted my steel and brass alloy vacuum flask, imported from germany, from my patent leather shoulder pack (imported from Sweden), and took a hearty swill of pu erh tea (imported from the Yunnan province of China) without spilling it on myself.
THAT IS ALL.
I can't believe that took me almost a half hour to write. My creativity gland just vomited , the contents of such being mostly stomach acid. I'm going to sleep now. really. right....now. yes. |
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|03:43 pm] |
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I had a dream that I was some kind of medievalish villager. And one day, I was plucking my excess eyebrow hairs when I noticed that I had a few growing that seemed to be made of wire. I told my mother about it and she told me to go to the village curing-guy/magician-sorceror-guy. So I went there. At first the curing-guy was kind of cartoonishly drawn, but then my dream decided that that didn't fit the rest of the dream, so it changed him into a realistically drawn handsomeguy. Then I told him about my wiry eyebrow hairs, and he said something like "huh . I can't fix them now, but just wait here for a few days." . Later, I was still in the vicinity of the curing guy and I don 't think my wiry hair was cured , but me and him and some other people were in some kind of stage performance. Then a monster appeared and chased the curing guy down a spiral staircase. Then I was like "I must save him!" so I jumped off the railing in an attempt to block the monster. Then I woke up.
How interesting . If it was a book , and didn't have wiry eyebrow hair as the main conflict, I think I would read it. maybe. |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2009|09:33 am] |
I have been playing this game lately. I don't really like long term commitments (in terms of entertainment :p) or games that will make you play all day. Endless forest is fun because you can just explore & there's no leveling up or to uselessly suck your time. It's a little boring at first, but you get into it after a little bit. One other thing I really like is that there is no way for anyone to be obnoxious or insult people, because there are so few ways of communication. Oh yeah, and you get to be an awesome creepy deer. But I am still a fawn for the next month :I
Also I have been drinking chai lattes. The kind that come doubly concentrated in little poury cartons, and you just add milk. The brand I have right now is "oregon chai" which a lot of people seem to like, but it is a little too sweet and not spicy enough for me. Anyway, it's a nice drink to have in the morning.
Or if not that , then irish/english/scottish breakfast tea with milk is delicious too. I wish I had some more irish breakfast tea. It is probably essential for some people. It has more kick than plain black tea, and if you brew it for more than 3 minutes it tastes almost like coffee. The only kind of black tea I have right now is "Rhubarb and vanilla" flavored from IKEA. You can't really taste the rhubarb/vanilla flavors unless you sweeten it alot, but you can definitely smell them. The smell is very sweet and a tiny bit unsettling. But that doesn't really make you want to stop drinking it. Hm i think there's also bagged tea at home but it is so flavorless in comparison. blah blah blah i'll stop now.
I don't really have anything in particular to say. Just waking up or something.
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[May. 25th, 2009|11:42 am] |
I made a new background. It is fish. I have a cloissone (is that how you spell it? iono) fish charm thing that looks like this so I just copied it. I'm not sure I like this background as much as the previous one, because there are not enough contrasting colors. Also you can't see the entire fish when you look at the margins, just two opposite halves. But I still like the diagonaly arrangement. There was a "make seamless" plugin on the gimp, so I tried that and kinda used the result as a template for arranging it.
I will use this vacation to make art more. yay! |
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[May. 23rd, 2009|10:14 pm] |
One time in elementary school, the cool/snooty kids flicked water in my face just to see what I'd do. So of course I said something like "Hey! blahblah why did you do that? That's not fair!" . Then they stood nearby, what they estimated to be out of earshot but really wasn't , and huddled in a circle to imitate me and talk about how uncool I was. I heard what they said, I think they said I was weird or something. A few minutes later after they left, I thought I should have smiled and said "Thanks, I'll keep that in mind!"
I don't know , it's not that great. In fact it probably would have encouraged the calling-of-maureen-weird even more. But it's pretty clever for a 3rd/4th/5th? grade kid. :I It just would have been so satisfying .
And now what is frustrating is that all those kids are probably pretty successful and attending snooty private colleges and whatnot. I think the head snootygirl was in the newspaper a few weeks ago. It is immature for me to be bitter about it now that we've all grown up, but still. I do not want to hear about these former snotballs and their accomplishments.
that is all. I haven't actually thought about these things lately, though . I haven't been doing much interesting lately, but sometimes it's sort of nice that way.
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[May. 20th, 2009|06:36 am] |
well hello there! I have no idea why I am writing in this at 6:30 am!
I spent all night studying (I might as well figure the stuff out, if this is the last final of the semester. though there are obvious problems with this idea, let's ignore those.) so then I was tired and then the sun came up and I had caffeine and now I am in a strange state of artificial reinvigoration that is not entirely trustworthy for mindprocesses. That sentence was so confusing. Maybe staying up all night was a dumb idea, but whatever. When I get home I can sleep and stuff and I will have a glorious summer vacation. Full of fun and sleep oh yeahheah
But I studied for countless hours so that has to be worth something. And things I didn't understand kinda clicked together.
I looked back on past entries of this when I was procrastinating, and I think sometimes I can be weirdly eloquent. In a bizarre way that involves nonexistant words. nice. But now is one of the noneloquent times.
Stimulant induced energy source! The core of me is actually very sluggish and tired but the outside is chirpy. Like m&ms. I am prone to mood swings in this condition! Right now I am in the positive end of a mood swing! yay!
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I got done with the last final of the semester ! then I went home and slept, but for some reason I was only able to for about 3 hours. That might be for the best. Anyway, I still feel like I will have another stressful class tomorrow or something, even though I don't. The absolute freedom of summer is way too much for me to even begin to comprehend.
here's a song. I seem to like the vesty phase of japanese pop. I have no idea how i figured out that this actually existed. But don't judge me :I That song and this one are both really pretty (even though I hhave no idea what anyone is saying D:) Unfortunately there seems to be pretty much no information about this band in english, and also no other websites to listen to the music outside of youtube. oh well~
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[May. 10th, 2009|10:32 pm] |
I just had a nice thought. Life is not always amazing, but that's OK.
You know how in Harry Potter, you have to remember your bestest ever memory in order to summon the dementor-repelling spell? As a reader back in the day, reading the third book for the first time, I was thinking "hmm, I don't think I would be able to think of an especially good enough memory. My life has pretty much been an even plain of goodness." . I still think that my life is contently , levelly good through and through. Whereas Harry (ok i know nerd blahblah) had periods of great sadness and periods of great ecstatic joy . And maybe real people don't have lives of such huge extremes, but the principle of happiness-balance can still be applied. If you had a bad day at school or at work or whatever, then chances are things will get better for you. Even if you are just not content with your current life, you can still feel good about the fact that you will eventually be at a point where you are relatively proud of your life's achievements and so forth. Because if you are sad, you will try to be happy. And if you are discontent with something , you will work to make yourself content about whatever it is.
That is all. Still procrastinatingish . My cat's paw is resting on my hand and it is really adorable. |
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[May. 9th, 2009|11:17 pm] |
neener neener neener neener neener neener dudududu doo doo do do do do do DUN .... DUN ,
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anyway. I should of course be doing something else right now . When I have to write a paper for school, first I say "hey, that's not too bad. and it's actually only half that long, because it has to be double spaced." . then I write the paper. but then when I get frustrated, I change the margin size. Usually the default is .79 inch and what the professors want is 1 inch, and that extends the length of the paper a little motivational bit. But this time I actually need 1.25 inch margins, which is amazing. Such a large measurement. So it's really fun to change the margin size this time. and then I'm like YES GO LENGTHENING . It's these little excitements in life.
I've been artly more and more often. I have a few things to fix and then I perhaps will upload a few.
my neck crackles when I move it a certain way. it makes such a satisfying sound yet is also so very unsettling. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2009|08:13 pm] |
I got my first jury duty summons in the mail today. I know it's a lottery and all, but I still don't understand why I got one before my 1 1/2- years-older-than-me-registered-before-me-sister. And the stupid thing is that studenthood only postpones your jury duty, not cancels it altogether. Life is not fair. not at all.
hhm also I am working on a 18x24 painting for watercolor class and it is actually turning out good. Usually I work very very small and that is bad, and when you work bigger it is kinda also a show of skill because bigger means less detail and therefore your imperfections are not hidden by intricacy. But it's an assignment that is not just a still life as usual. So I can use my imagination and I like that. I guess when I take more art classes I will be able to imaginate more too. But anyway the theme is 'mortal' . I am drawing a big night sky over a telephone pole with a bird on it. Pretty night skies, especially when you're more in the mountains /nature/out of humanlight, can be profoundly depressing because of their bigness and comparative immortality. The bird and the telephone pole kinda are supposed to show that when living things die, the universe doesn't really care. And thats what mortality means to me :I It's usually nice not to think about . bleh.
Also it's getting too hot. I like cold weather better because there are more clothing options and I don't have to show people my gnarled arms and scab ridden legs. aukhj and I must undergo the perilous process of icing tea. Also also heat is more tiring and dehydrating. Last summer I almost fainted a few times because I guess I didn't drink enough water or something. Which is weird. anyway coldness is better then hotness. In my opinion.
hah this is all over the place. goodbye. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2009|02:51 pm] |
Heres a bunch of stuff I don't think I put here before.
( lalalalala )
My forehead muscles hurt. Maybe I have been.. furrowing my brow too much. I wish I could massage them. Or the more likely thing is maybe I just have a headache.
So , while trying to fix my DS (really just screw the case back on I think) I broke the freaking little plastic turny bit off the power switch. Heh , whoops. So either I save up and buy a new one, or order a new power switch and hope that my dad can solder it back on. Also the shoulder springs for the l&r buttons are little butts. They kept sproinging out of place so I left them out. The buttons still work but they arent as elevaty. BAH. I guess I've pretty much given up, but maybe I'll regain the motivation someday. Hm , but the DSi's look cool. Dunno if they would be able to support too much homebrew and stuff , but they have memory card slots and I think they have a built in AAC music player. So that is cool. I WISH I HAD CASH ASDF
I am playing pokemon ruby. I wish I had the money and equipment to buy pokemon diamond or pearl ;_; . I want to learn about the new species. like the weird robot one. And explore new lands, digitally.
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